I know the last few posts have been super lame and mad depressing but I cant wait to be able to look back at them in a year and see how lame I was. I take breakups hard but man.. this one really got to me. I just want to hibernate for a year and wakeup and be fine. I really feel like that was the last straw. Like, zero fucks will be given about women's feeling from now on. Why should I care? Like, I did everything I was supposed to do. E V E R Y T H I N G. And now I'm sitting in my room with a bottle of Merlot listening to 1977 by the Dream. I do not do this shit. This shit is so lame. Calling into work and watching 500 Days of Summer is lame. Not having control of your emotions and where your mind wanders is lame. Pouting over girls is lame. I do not do this. I'm not built like that. I'm so used to always being logical and in control of everything. And in two days my shit is all over the place. I'm being a baby right now I know, but I have no other outlet.