What if we're never meant to be locked into any relationship?
Not just with a significant other, but with anyone. What if everyone that comes into your life is there for just a season? What if no one is ever supposed to really stay in our lives forever? I mean, really, who made that up? Who said that is the way things are supposed to be? There are people in my life that I hold near and dear to me (friends, family, etc.) and it feels like every time I look away, be it for a month or a year, things have already changed. We used to be able to talk about any and everything and now conversations are lifeless. We aren't the same people. We aren't the sameus. Thatthing, whatever it was that took us from acquaintances tofriends has flickered out. That fast. I'm not saying it's their fault, I'm not saying it's mine, it's just how things have developed. I feel like there is nothing we can do to stop this from happening other than to cherish every moment to it's absolute fullest. I feel like every relationship I have with every person in my life will eventually whither away and eventually become a hollow shell of what once was. A mere memory. I used to feel helpless when I thought about this. But now I've come to peace with it. I mean.. fuck it right? If I'm wrong, great. I hope I am. If I'm not, I already expected it. Like when I was younger when I would skip to the back of the Goosebumps books and read the end before I even started the story. It's not even a surprise.
And I'm not even on some pessimistic "fuck the world" type shit. Nor am I wearing all black and listening to Fallout Boy in skinny jeans. Not at all. I've just come to take things for what they appear to be to me. I can't remember a time that I've ever been so neutral in my state of mind. I'm done rambling now. I just wanted to get that out.